Gravity

"Set me free, leave me be, I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be, but your onto me and all over me."

So someone who I thought was going to leave me alone for hopefully the rest of my life has found his way back to me. And I don't even know how to feel about it, I am so happy that he is speaking to me again but I don't want to go back through the whole song and dance of his mood swings making me dizzy. He must really think I'm stupid because he tries to talk about things that we've already talked about like we haven't talked about them. Like he wants to forget any conversation we've ever had.

It's frustrating, and annoying, and it hurts, and I hate it.

I wish I could hate him, but I can't. He has me between this rock and hard place where I can't escape him but I'll never be to him what he is to me.

I just wrote a letter to my past self warning me to not get in my car accident, and to also avoid meeting the boy I'm talking about. He has effected me so much that I wish I had never met him, so, as I said in my letter, "this huge part of your heart will remain yours, not floating around in limbo because he didn’t want it, and no one else has been able to rescue it."

I wish my past self could take that advice, but she can't. I can't go back in time to make that happen, or to warn myself, or stop this huge event in my life from happening. So I have to live my life as if it doesn't effect me, and doesn't hurt me, and just smile and try to continue to make it through as much as I possibly can.

Mac's Confuse me!!!

Now while I can admit that I have always wanted a mac desk or laptop I cannot deny that they confuse the hell out of me.

The only reason I know crap about mac's is because of my best friend Gabrielle and because I am forced to sit in front of one for 4 hours every Wednesday in my digital media culture class.

I still continue to right click even though I know it doesn't mean shit.

One of these days I will finally get the fact that the only way I can right click is to click and hold. As for copying and pasting I learned how...finally. Thank you Kyle, you have saved me from hours of going up to edit and pressing copy/cut/paste from there.

The only reason I am still on this computer, yes it's a Mac, is because my laptop is still dead....dead dead dead dead dead....it's dead! So I need a new one, because even if the old one gets fixed it is still a giant piece of shit.

So thank you Mac Lab, for giving me my daily dose of facebook, yahoo, council of elrond, owlnet, and of course my Blog, because you my readers, would die without me

......HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NO!!!!

Vampire's Can get Sunburn Too!!

So I had my first day of my tennis class yesterday. It felt great to be back on the court, with my blue racket, hitting the yellow balls like my life depends on it. I cannot even express how much I missed being out there and playing my favorite game.

What I didn't miss...sunburn. Somehow in the hour and a half class I got sunburnt on my face. My vampire like skin complexion attracts the sun almost as well as a solar panel. I can't believe that for a not even two hour gym class my face is now glowing like rudolph's red nose.

So now, until the weather becomes less severe, or the hole in the ozone is fixed (Fat chance) I will have to smother sun screen all over my face so that my pale white skin stays as such. I do still need to play Alice Cullen after all and a bright red face will really ruin that for me.

Oh well maybe the color of my face will encourage more people to buy lobster's when I go into work this weekend.

There you go brightside!

I Still Exist

So I am still alive, not that anyone reads this. But I do miss you Michi, I am taking tennis this semester at school so I think I might be able to smoke you soon. We should make a date to play tennis in a few weeks when it isn't quite so hot.

So I really don't have much to say since the last time I posted. My life doesn't change much from day to day.

VampCamp still exists, we are still doing video's and the Addie and Sam show is working out well so far.

School is school, I did bring my GPA up but it still needs to be improved more.

I HATE still living in my house because my mother is Satan's Mistress but I will get out eventually.

So I still exist, but my existance is pretty damn boring.