Almost Christmas And I Don't Know What To Do

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I hardly know what to do with myself. This is my first Christms away from my family and I am really feeling it. I work on Christmas eve, and I actually wouldnt mind just sleeping through Christmas altogether. The only family I'll have here is my brother and my cousin. My brother will probably spend the day with his girlfriend, and my cousin says he wants to see me but who knows if that is going to happen...my cousin isnt the most reliable person i've known. I just think of Christmas to be such a time for family and here I am stuck with no where to go, no one to see. I think if I wasnt having aChristmas party on the 26th I would be ready to shoot someone. I am really excited for my party, but at the same time I would trade my party for a good old fashioned Christmas at my Nana's in Erie, with snow, and a real Christmas tree, and Nana's cooking, and all of my family. I mean how many more Christmas' do I have with my Nana? I'm just trying to get all my whining over now, so MAYBE I can have a good Christmas with my brother and my cousin, and my friends on the 26th. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!!

How To Be Normal

One of my co-workers the other day told me that I need to start acting normal. I had to fight not to laugh at that request. Anyone who knows me know knows that I am not exactly a dime a dozen. I am quirky, weird, special, all those words that mean the same thing. I am an actor I am a musical freak I love to read, write, sing, act, try new things. I am a Christian, raised a Catholic, but I sort of choose what I want to believe in. I make my own rules for my own life and if you dont like it then you dont need to say a word to me. I believe being normal is vastly overratted, I dont want to be normal its not who I am. I dont see myself as a 9-5 worker in mainstream America becase that is not who I am. I will screw up, I will make mistakes, maybe offenend people but that is the way I am living my life. It is far from normal, but it is me. Embrace it or get over it and don't try to tell me to be what I never will.