Almost Christmas And I Don't Know What To Do

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I hardly know what to do with myself. This is my first Christms away from my family and I am really feeling it. I work on Christmas eve, and I actually wouldnt mind just sleeping through Christmas altogether. The only family I'll have here is my brother and my cousin. My brother will probably spend the day with his girlfriend, and my cousin says he wants to see me but who knows if that is going to happen...my cousin isnt the most reliable person i've known. I just think of Christmas to be such a time for family and here I am stuck with no where to go, no one to see. I think if I wasnt having aChristmas party on the 26th I would be ready to shoot someone. I am really excited for my party, but at the same time I would trade my party for a good old fashioned Christmas at my Nana's in Erie, with snow, and a real Christmas tree, and Nana's cooking, and all of my family. I mean how many more Christmas' do I have with my Nana? I'm just trying to get all my whining over now, so MAYBE I can have a good Christmas with my brother and my cousin, and my friends on the 26th. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL!!