So my best friend has a Vlog on YouTube...well who doesn't really. I mean I do, mine just kinda sucks. But if your interested
Search: ReinactorNumber1 on youtube, and my best friends is TiaraGirlAddie
We have a new video up. The two of us have started some exciting new projects. A lot of Twilight spoofs that will hopefully get us in good with some TwiHards, and get us a following.
We are starting off just as 'The Adventures of Alice and Bella' and from there it will expand and grow and be awesome.
So I just thought I would plug that to the....two people who see this. Go and watch our video for the hell of it, and so we can get our view and subscriber count up.
So besides my projects my main project is to do good in school this semester, my GPA is so sad it is truly not funny. So I'm sure I'll have fun venting about school and the crap I have to do for it, and who knows this may just be my outlet.
So I appoligise in advance!
Michi~ I'm sad your gone, I lost my tennis partner, and I would love to come see you, but right now I'm not sure when, but hey drop me a text or call when you get bored.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Blogging more
Well I will be blogging more, my Digital Media Culture class will be having blogs as part of my grade.
I'm in class right now, so I will have another blog for no one to follow
Yeah me!
I'm in class right now, so I will have another blog for no one to follow
Yeah me!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Hurting
I haven't been this depressed in years, and I really don't like it.
I am tired of hurting, and I am tired of being hurt. I need to know where on my body is the sign that says "You have my permission to treat me like crap", then once I know where it is, I can rip it off and burn it because I give no one my permission to treat me like crap. Yet it keeps happening, and one of these days I am just going to snap.
My day started off really well, all through work I was happy, and with it, and then I come home. I get on Facebook and one notice catches my eye. My ex boyfriend, who a few weeks ago dumped me in a text message claiming he didn't want a relationship, is now in a relationship with some other girl.
It wasn't that he didn't want a relationship, it was just that he didn't want a relationship with me. Well why in the hell couldn't he just say that. Last time something like this happened to me I hated the guy who did it. I don't hate Matt... I hate myself.
My mirror needs to talk to me, like in Harry Potter, so that maybe I can figure out what is so wrong with me.
Cause this pain needs to stop, and I will do anything to save myself.
I am tired of hurting, and I am tired of being hurt. I need to know where on my body is the sign that says "You have my permission to treat me like crap", then once I know where it is, I can rip it off and burn it because I give no one my permission to treat me like crap. Yet it keeps happening, and one of these days I am just going to snap.
My day started off really well, all through work I was happy, and with it, and then I come home. I get on Facebook and one notice catches my eye. My ex boyfriend, who a few weeks ago dumped me in a text message claiming he didn't want a relationship, is now in a relationship with some other girl.
It wasn't that he didn't want a relationship, it was just that he didn't want a relationship with me. Well why in the hell couldn't he just say that. Last time something like this happened to me I hated the guy who did it. I don't hate Matt... I hate myself.
My mirror needs to talk to me, like in Harry Potter, so that maybe I can figure out what is so wrong with me.
Cause this pain needs to stop, and I will do anything to save myself.
Monday, March 2, 2009
He's Just Not That Into You
I cannot stress how much I hate that phrase. I saw the movie for the second time tonight, and it is so brutally honest that I hate it, and I love it at the same time. That movie is so true in so many ways I think all women should be required to view it just to keep them from doing some stupid shit that women who are dating may do.
We, as women, get told so many different things from so many different people about men, and the kinds of relationships we have with me, and why men do what they do. Our mom's tell us one thing, our best friends another, the gay men we hang out with their own take on straight men, and then some straight men who you have no kind of relationship with will just tell you straight out "He's just not that into you"
Why can't everyone say that? Why can't women be confronted with the truth up front? God forbid the man who a girl is actually going out with tell her that at the end of a date just so she can save some time on that stupid step of waiting for a guys call, hoping that he wants to see her again. Trying to have a relationship in this day and age seems impossible for any women who is not 'what every man dreams of'. Myself I am a women with curves, and a little more weight than I would like, and it seems like the only men I ever come across want some 18inch waisted silicon breasted airheaded bimbo.
That's not me!
This last guy that I went out with, asked me to be his girlfriend, and for about a week things were wonderful. Then, while I was away on a church retreat, in a text message, he tells me he just wants to "date" I come to find out a few days later, through another text, that "dating" to him means being able to do all the physical stuff with me, without having to buy me dinner. I said no thank you because I don't do friends with benefit type relationships because I am the sensetive caring girl who would be hoping for more, and then crushed when it lead to nothing, and a few months later he moved along to the next piece of ass. I couldn't do that I would die.
So again I'm single, one of my friends telling me to post a "personal ad" on craigs list and me thinking 'Am I really that desperate at 20?'. So I said no, and if I still haven't had any sort of meaningful relationship by the end of college then maybe I'll try and find someone that way. But that damn movie, I can't get it out of my head.
That movie made me give up hope on a guy who I was told liked me because according to that movie, if he liked me, and wanted to date me, he would be. Same with another guy, I'll never tell him how much I like him because, if he liked me, he would do something about it.
I am not the exception.....I am the rule.
We, as women, get told so many different things from so many different people about men, and the kinds of relationships we have with me, and why men do what they do. Our mom's tell us one thing, our best friends another, the gay men we hang out with their own take on straight men, and then some straight men who you have no kind of relationship with will just tell you straight out "He's just not that into you"
Why can't everyone say that? Why can't women be confronted with the truth up front? God forbid the man who a girl is actually going out with tell her that at the end of a date just so she can save some time on that stupid step of waiting for a guys call, hoping that he wants to see her again. Trying to have a relationship in this day and age seems impossible for any women who is not 'what every man dreams of'. Myself I am a women with curves, and a little more weight than I would like, and it seems like the only men I ever come across want some 18inch waisted silicon breasted airheaded bimbo.
That's not me!
This last guy that I went out with, asked me to be his girlfriend, and for about a week things were wonderful. Then, while I was away on a church retreat, in a text message, he tells me he just wants to "date" I come to find out a few days later, through another text, that "dating" to him means being able to do all the physical stuff with me, without having to buy me dinner. I said no thank you because I don't do friends with benefit type relationships because I am the sensetive caring girl who would be hoping for more, and then crushed when it lead to nothing, and a few months later he moved along to the next piece of ass. I couldn't do that I would die.
So again I'm single, one of my friends telling me to post a "personal ad" on craigs list and me thinking 'Am I really that desperate at 20?'. So I said no, and if I still haven't had any sort of meaningful relationship by the end of college then maybe I'll try and find someone that way. But that damn movie, I can't get it out of my head.
That movie made me give up hope on a guy who I was told liked me because according to that movie, if he liked me, and wanted to date me, he would be. Same with another guy, I'll never tell him how much I like him because, if he liked me, he would do something about it.
I am not the exception.....I am the rule.
Friday, January 30, 2009
My Boring Life
I really wish I had something to say right now. My life has been pretty boring.
During the week I go to school. On the weekend Red Lobster owns my soul.
I mean I am not really complaining because things in my life have been worse. If I really look at my life it is really good right now. I'm not having too much issue with money, my mother is in a good little stint in her life: we haven't had many arguements, I think I'll be able to do well in class this semester, and work is still going well.
The only complaint I have is with men. I cannot for the life of me figure out the guys in my life; the only ones I do understand are my father and my brother, and sometimes they are even beyond me. I have three guys who I like, and all three of them I do not get at all.
Guy 1: He has dreams about me, and the two of us have a lot in common. He cares about what happens to me, and listens when I have a problem. Yet he could get any girl he wants, and is totally out of my league so I don't even want to try. Plus he and I are really good friends, and if I told him how much I like him it might make things awkward and that would kill me.
Guy 2: He is the only guy who I know for sure actually likes me but he was just in a very long relationship and he doesn't know what he wants. He doesn't know if he wants to date again, or just have fun or anything at all. I just kinda wish he would at least go on one date with with so we could see if there is anything there at all, or if I should just get over him now.
Guy 3: The newest guy who has started showing me attention. Made some very flirty comments toward me at my party. I also went to the movies with him the other night him and another friend of mine and we had a good time. I wasn't sure when I asked him to hang out he was going to say yes at all but he did, and now that adds more confusion to my man issues.
I have really been backing off and not pushing too hard with any of the guys so that I won't scare them away all together. I'm just waiting to see what happens because at this point I can't guess, and I have no control over it myself.
So here is to my boring life, hopefully it stays this good.
During the week I go to school. On the weekend Red Lobster owns my soul.
I mean I am not really complaining because things in my life have been worse. If I really look at my life it is really good right now. I'm not having too much issue with money, my mother is in a good little stint in her life: we haven't had many arguements, I think I'll be able to do well in class this semester, and work is still going well.
The only complaint I have is with men. I cannot for the life of me figure out the guys in my life; the only ones I do understand are my father and my brother, and sometimes they are even beyond me. I have three guys who I like, and all three of them I do not get at all.
Guy 1: He has dreams about me, and the two of us have a lot in common. He cares about what happens to me, and listens when I have a problem. Yet he could get any girl he wants, and is totally out of my league so I don't even want to try. Plus he and I are really good friends, and if I told him how much I like him it might make things awkward and that would kill me.
Guy 2: He is the only guy who I know for sure actually likes me but he was just in a very long relationship and he doesn't know what he wants. He doesn't know if he wants to date again, or just have fun or anything at all. I just kinda wish he would at least go on one date with with so we could see if there is anything there at all, or if I should just get over him now.
Guy 3: The newest guy who has started showing me attention. Made some very flirty comments toward me at my party. I also went to the movies with him the other night him and another friend of mine and we had a good time. I wasn't sure when I asked him to hang out he was going to say yes at all but he did, and now that adds more confusion to my man issues.
I have really been backing off and not pushing too hard with any of the guys so that I won't scare them away all together. I'm just waiting to see what happens because at this point I can't guess, and I have no control over it myself.
So here is to my boring life, hopefully it stays this good.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Dating A Hypocrite
Okay, so since September I have been single but at the end of July, beginning of August I dated this one guy, who I thought was amazing and then at the end of Sept. he dumped me. I was crushed, he made me mad, and I just hated him. Well a month or two ago I talked to him for the first time in a long time, and he came out of the closest to me. It was a huge relief, because well I got my closeure, and he dated another girl after me so it wasn't my fault.
Well the two of us have been on really great terms, we see each other more now then we did when we dated. So tonight he and I were hanging out and he decided to tell me that when he went to New York to see Rent, he kissed someone else when he was at a party. He hadn't called me the whole weekend, and he swore up and down that he didn't do anything with anyone, he just danced. So as of right now he is not only a lair, bur here is what makes him a hypocrite.
While we were dating, I had a knock-down drag out fight with my mom. She locked me out of the house and took my cell and keys. When I finally out back into the house I was upset, I cried and when I woke up the next morning I was still upset, so I decided to skip my classes. I knew it was a bad idea, but I did. Well when he called me that day I told him my classes were cancelled so I wouldn't have to explain, because he didn't believe me when I told him how my mom acted to begin with. I lied, but it was so stupid, and I told him later that day anyway.
When I did tell him the truth he blew up at me. Told me he couldnt be with someone who lied to him, and he would have to think about if he still wanted to date me. Well he did take me back, I swore never to lie to him again, and we broke up a little over a week later.
It just really makes me mad that he was such a hypocrite. Lying to me about something like kissing someone else, when I told a little white lie and got nothing but crap. So right now I am just venting a little bit, I told my 2 best friends and I won't tell anyone else because I refuse to let myself get upset about something that doesnt matter anymore because we are not together, but I just hate that he is a Hypocrite and I needed to get that off my chest.
Thank you!
Well the two of us have been on really great terms, we see each other more now then we did when we dated. So tonight he and I were hanging out and he decided to tell me that when he went to New York to see Rent, he kissed someone else when he was at a party. He hadn't called me the whole weekend, and he swore up and down that he didn't do anything with anyone, he just danced. So as of right now he is not only a lair, bur here is what makes him a hypocrite.
While we were dating, I had a knock-down drag out fight with my mom. She locked me out of the house and took my cell and keys. When I finally out back into the house I was upset, I cried and when I woke up the next morning I was still upset, so I decided to skip my classes. I knew it was a bad idea, but I did. Well when he called me that day I told him my classes were cancelled so I wouldn't have to explain, because he didn't believe me when I told him how my mom acted to begin with. I lied, but it was so stupid, and I told him later that day anyway.
When I did tell him the truth he blew up at me. Told me he couldnt be with someone who lied to him, and he would have to think about if he still wanted to date me. Well he did take me back, I swore never to lie to him again, and we broke up a little over a week later.
It just really makes me mad that he was such a hypocrite. Lying to me about something like kissing someone else, when I told a little white lie and got nothing but crap. So right now I am just venting a little bit, I told my 2 best friends and I won't tell anyone else because I refuse to let myself get upset about something that doesnt matter anymore because we are not together, but I just hate that he is a Hypocrite and I needed to get that off my chest.
Thank you!